The TV screen goes dark. I climb the ladder to the mezzanine. At the edge of the bed I take off my clothes. I hurry under the duvet. The floor creaks as she comes to join. I slide a little closer. She drapes her legs over mine. Her body is warm. Winter rattles against the windows.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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