The bus arrives before I’m done smoking. The seat hurts my back. On the other side of the dirty window the city turns into empty space, factories, autoroutes and train tracks. A multitude of greys. I remember where I came from, green trees, water, a lush valley. I ran away from something else entirely.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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