At a table out front I devour a pastry and burn my tongue on hot coffee. Smoking a cigarette I watch the people of the quarter. I look for faces I know. I left Toronto not wanting to do the same thing here. I wanted friends. I wanted to leave a mark. It looks like I missed it.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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