Walking home is miserable. Bitter wind in our faces. When she proposes entering a bookshop by my apartment, I follow her into the warmth. Scanning the shelves I see several local writers’ names on fresh spines. No sense searching for mine. I’m a nobody. I’m where I’m meant to be.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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