Pounding on the keyboard it’s good to be alive. Over the raga playing through my headphones I hear her stirring in the bedroom above. My fingers hover, waiting, not wanting to disturb her, though the electricity in my hands is impossible to ignore. I wait until she settles. I hammer the keys like I’m alone.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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