I stand on a meter high snow bank marked by bird tracks, paw prints and holes burned deep by dog piss. At my feet a ripped open sack from a local boulangerie. Baguettes are broken. Full loaves lie frozen. Lighting a cigarette I look at the sky to find the moon, not even a sliver. Thinking what a waste, I exhale.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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