I watch hookers wave at cars and men leave the rooming house empty handed to return with boxes of beer. Pushing ink through a screen I wish it was me with nothing better to do but pass the day getting drunk in my dirty little room. It’s depressingly romantic. It’s easy. But I reject the clichĂ©.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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