On a bench in front of the bistro I devour a viennoiserie. Morsels end up in my shoes. Pathetic, but what do you do? I light a cigarette with the air of a nobleman. I exhale with dignity. I cross my leg. It’s dainty the way my foot kicks. Brown sugar crumbles fall. Pigeons will sing my praise.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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