Standing on the stoop I pass her my lighter. She closely inspects the design. An 8-bit maple leaf. She rambles. Her voice is soft and comforting. So I’m quiet. I watch her calloused hands unwrap a pack of cigarettes. She clutches one with her lips. The flame is bright. I should ask her name.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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