Running for the bus brings me joy. Eight hundred metres. My blood will pump. My lungs will burn. I’ll be blessed with a faintness of mind; freedom. Because the empty apartment and shitty job, the artistic failure, they all disappear when it’s nothing but one foot in front of the other.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
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