I walk in the door feeling awful, I’m weak, nauseous, sweating. I drop my laundry bag on the floor; it falls. I strip out of my work clothes, I replace them with polyester gym shorts. The room spins as I stumble to the couch. I pull a heavy blanket over my head. I’m scared, there’s no one to call. 

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