I did ask it things. Am I now in the midst of another me? A new man born from a 4 day acid binge? It’s conceivable. And highly likely. I used it effectively to quit drinking. So it’s possible I’ve done the unthinkable. I’ve shattered the iron seal around my heart. I’ve opened myself up to love.
And I need all the reasons I can find not to hate myself. But it’s hard. Even the idea makes me shiver. Because I see loving myself like looking down on others. Riding around on a high horse. And I never want to think I’m better then the people I see on the street. The ones who have it rough. The ones who don’t fit in. The ones I see my own face in.
vomited in my mouth a little.
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